releasethebattleraven

Well, I managed three days of that challenge before life got in the way and I got too far behind to catch up again without it being a bit of struggle. Maybe the better idea is to just go back to writing fic every so often and updating as I can rather than daily.

When it comes down to it, I'm not really sure how to label myself some of the time. My head is a confusing place. I've been trying to learn myself more over the last four years or so, just taking the time to really understand why I do things the way I do them, something that is good to know when you suffer from anxiety and need to talk yourself down from an anxiety attack at work on a weekly basis.

I know I'm very much a transman. I know that this is something that causes a huge amount of my anxiety. I also know that in my current job, I can never transition, let alone tell management that I'd like to. Skirts or dresses required. Ugh.

I know that I'm otherkin, a median/polywere blob that I'm still trying to decipher. I know of wolf/canine/dragon/fox, and I know of whatever Jadyn, whether he's an other or not, brings to the table: Incubus/Hellhound/Deitykin. It's almost too much to keep track of and I rather miss the days of my knowledge leading me to being a single formed therian.

I know that I'm in a relationship with a partner that I do love very much, but that I'm so in love with that I'm terrified I'll make one wrong move and lose everything. I suppose that's a problem that I need to get over and soon, because it's not healthy for any relationship. I really want this to work and I don't now how to stop obsessively worrying about it.